it's weird. because for the first time in my whole entire life, i am happy with being 17.
i am content. i'm not thinking gosh i can't wait to be 18, because 17 sounds so dumb now.
i've always thought that when i was 11 or 14.
but now...it's like i just want to stay like this forever.
i think because i now know who i am.
everytime i look at pictures from my 13 or 14 self, i always think, look at what a mess i was.
when i was 13 i was head over heels for someone who kept being such a waste of time for me. then when i was 14, as you might recall, i felt so low about myself and i was jealous and angry...
& now i am so happy i've learned my lessons, and in a way become more smarter and maturer about things.
you know?
it's like i'm slowly finding a place in this world.